You questioned, why didn't I ask you how you felt

But you seemed to have forgotten the hand you dealt

The girl you wanted so desperately, finally had the guts to leave your sight

You admitted you wanted a family, but remember I lost the baby when we had that fight

Yes, you led me to your heart and I couldn't stay long

'Cuz your stubborn mentality could never allow you to be wrong

I wined you and dined you, seemed to be the only time we were satisfied

'Till the pleasure was gone, and again the pain forced me to cry

I cooked, I cleaned, I even rubbed your back

Yet, the love in return I seemed to lack

And yes, I remember calling you everywhere you were

But if you didn't lie so much maybe I wouldn't have believed you were with her

She was your daughter's mother and that was my expectations

But it was hard 'cuz I tried my best to be so damn patient

And I accepted your money, it was something I deserved

Along with the house, the car, jewels, and the furs

But it could never amount to what you've done to me

I was young, and you molded me into what you wanted me to be

You claimed you weren't jealous and you called me your true desire

You said my eyes were twinkling lights but when I saw yours I viewed fire

It scared me and I had no other choice but to go

I finally understood what I needed to know

So I left you a letter to begin my mark

Tactful, I thought I was trying not to break your heart

I went as far as lying, I made an excuse why I had to leave

But I think we both knew you never treated me like a queen

I could admit you gave me love that I have yet to obtain

But there's still a hole in my heart that seems to remain

Never did I imagine I'd mean so much to one guy

But you left me with guilt, how could you commit suicide

I remember waking up to a phone call stating 'you were gone'

Your whole family hated me, thinking I was wrong

The worst pain of all was that I neglected your life

I wasn't at your funeral 'cuz I had too much pride

But it's been 5 years and I thought about you everyday

And now here's my time to throw my burdens away